Dear bloggie....
I'm totally out. I don't know how to describe my feelings.... its blend with many things.... I am sorry if I purposely doing something beyond me.... I feel guilty but at the same time I feel nothing.....
I am not that strong to face all this....
Dear you...
I'm very sorry for me acting like this... to be honest, I don't have the intention but I really had enough...
I'm sick of ur laziness... at least do something.... I did everything just for you... is that worth enough?
By just looking at you laying on the bed & holding your games.... it's really made me feels like shit....
Love itself is not that enough... what I need is a responsible guy.... not someone who asking for this & that... I don't ask much... I just wanna see your effort to do something rather than letting ur lazy ass conquer everythings. ..
Its only me who feeds you with everything.... you'll never understand how I really feels unless you were on my shoes....
I really can't stand this anymore... Dear God, please show me your way... at least show me 1 solution that can solve all this... I am tired & its really drives me crazy....
Nobody knows what I really feels....
Only me & God knows...
I used to be loved but it seems like the love is not working.... by loving only is not that enough.... I have sacrifice a lot... sometimes I regret loving someone who made me feels like far far away from my family... I hide everything from them... especially my feelings... everyone of them might see the happiness outside me... but no 1 knows what inside me....
Dear God... I am sorry for the ignorance I've done towards you & my family.... .I shouldn't fallen to someone whose not respect my feeling... someone with differ belief with me... I am very sorry to my mom.... I should listen to you from the beginning.... you know exactly that my relationship won't work well....
I know at the end, this might not working... I am so not ready to convert and I have to respect my mom decision.... whatever it is, she will never allows me to convert.... but at the same time I might broke somebody feeling...
God, could you please show me the right way on how to overcome all this... I am sick to be in this kind of situation...
And what's the point to hold on this while everyone's not so happy...
On the otherside, I truly grateful from his side... for everything they helped me a lot... I am thankful but it doesn't mean that I should disobey someone who's really meaningful to me.....
Could someone listen to my crying heart....
Have a Blessed Sunday people!!!
Little beautiful Annz is bored.. hehee
She's working on Sunday while everybody else are on day off... she meant weekend holidays... Damnnn!!! & seriously she is super bored... wink2.... She missed her dumbo spongeby at homey... & her chub chub boyfie... hehe...
I'd been watching pitch perfect few times... Aca-awesome..
I really loved the character of Jesse.. He's damn adorable... what can I say...? He's really makes me feel like doubled wowwww!! The type of guy that I'd been dreamt... so catchy.. a little bit playful... & I hate the kissing part of him...
Not to forget to say: Thanks to my boyfie for this beautiful note II.. I really appreciate this... hehe...
Aca-believe it!! When I reached home, I saw a pink color pouch & its note II inside... I love you always... but I even more love this.. hahaaa....
